Wednesday, June 01, 2011

i am coming out of my clomid haze... hallelujah.

after my last post about being so depressed and not being able to admit anything i was grateful for, my sister heather sent me an email. she said that she and her kids couldn't believe that i couldn't even be grateful for dottie! well, since i am starting to feel a little bit better, i decided to make a list of all the things i am grateful for right now. i haven't done a list in so long! i love lists.

1. have you ever seen the show "billy the exterminator"? tyler loves it and we have been waching it a ton. okay, so if you know griffin boice, you need to look up this show and watch it, because 'billy' looks exactly, exactly, like griffin. the funniest part is though, he has a world class mullet. no, the word mullet doesn't even do it justice, you just have to experience it. he also dresses in all black with like, metal spiked shoulders and gloves. it is soooo funny. it is like watching griffin in a halloween costume. i can't get over it.

2. tyler is a really good husband. (well, not right exactly now, cause he is being reaaallll bratty and demanding carrot cake to be delivered to him in bed... but other than right now, he's real good). as i might have mentioned once or twice, i have been crazy... and crazy depressed. not only did he buy me a new car to cheer me up, and take me on a real fun road trip (which i will blog about later), he is just so patient and loving with me. i threw a whopper of a tantrum on sunday. a reaaallll bad one. i blogged a long time ago about my dad experiencing my wrath for making us miss the mcdonald's breakfast. well tyler didn't let me go to sonic, and i reaallly wanted a chili cheese coney. (yes it was sunday, leave me alone). i flipped out. like, i was stomping my feet and screaming "i hate you!!!" at the top of my lungs. i wouldn't come upstairs with him, and i was major pouting. the whole time, through my like 2 hour tantrum, he was saying how he just wanted me to come spend time with him, and that he just wanted to be with me. then later that night, when i had (mostly) cooled off, he put his arm around me and told me that he just loved everything about me. and then as a bonus he called me pint-sized. this is why my mom loved him so much, because he really does love me so so much. it even blows me away sometimes. he just loves me. and i don't know for sure, but i think he might like it when i blow up :)

3. speaking of my dad and mcdonald's breakfast, he is coming to my house and staying the night on the way to his old fart fishing trip, and i am so excited!

4. also, in july we are having a big family reunion in utah and i get to see my sisters! okay and my brother too :)  i am just so excited to be with all my family. i love my family so much. summer is usually the time we all get to see each other and i can't wait.

5. did i mention that i live right by tahoe, and it's almost summer? tahoe in the summer is heaven on earth. tyler and i are discussing what hikes we want to go on... where we want to camp... etc. can't wait.

6. tyler and i are also discussing what little trips we want to take this summer/fall, and they include, but are not limited to: southern california, las vegas, bay area / giants baseball game, and yosemite.

7. my car is awesome.

8. dottie was hanging out in the backyard today, laying in the sun i assumed. i went out front to dump something in the big garbage can and as i rounded the corner by the backyard gate, i caught dottie red-handed. she was digging out under the gate and was laying on her side, half in the backyard and half in the front, pushing all her little paws so fast trying to make it through. i came around the corner and our eyes met, and she knew she was busted. she scrambled back to the backyard, and started shaking her little bum bum so hard, looking at me. she is so funny. she is my love. but she did get a little spanking for that one.

9. so you think you can dance. sigh. i got choked up when i started watching the first episode, because i just couldn't believe it was on again. i should've been a dancer.

okay, that's all for now. see, i'm grateful.


ashleyboice said...

Yay! Good for you.

Kristine said...

i am glad you are on the UP! yay. i want to see pictures from this road trip. sounds fun!

ps. get to so cal fast! shauna and i will treat you so good!

dcives said...

billy exterminator was first on the list? so you. ha. you and dottie crack me up! i can just see tyler secretly smiling when you aren't looking when you have a tantrum. i know dave isn't smiling when i have mine (secretly or otherwise). love you. can't wait to see you to. There are some pine trees on base, and around korea some. Whenever we smell one. We all stop and breath in and together all sigh and say TAhoooooe. We miss it so.

Cindy said...

My daughter in law is going thru this right now. 3rd round of clomid, triple the dose. We are sure hoping the ovaries will be glowing on Wednesday! That med is hard stuff....

Kirsti.osborne said...

i;m so glad you are feeling better! you NEED to call me.

bBchronicles said...

GREAT post - have to go find "Billy-Grif"!!!! Glad you're feeling yourself again. I can't even imagine what that must be like!