Tuesday, January 26, 2010

one more again

1. seminary is awesome. really really good. i totally love the class, and am getting over my nervousness every morning. however, i am noticing a pattern with my days as far as that goes...
i wake up (that's going pretty good by the way) and go to seminary, and i'm feeling great. after my lesson, i still feel great, and like it went well. but then throughout the course of the day i start to doubt myself... and by the time i am home at night and preparing my lesson for the next day, i feel like i am a worthless excuse for a teacher. [insert extreme humility]. i am reeeaaaalllly feeling the weight of the responsibility that i have to teach these kids. so, i guess that's good, but i could do without the anxiety attacks every night.
i think i just need a spiritual confirmation that i really am the one that is supposed to be teaching the class (which i am doubting every day...).

2. on a lighter note, i am very excited for kelly to come in 1.5 weeks to visit for the weekend. we plan on eating delicious food and thrifting.... and giggling... and singing accapella harmonies to songs like "alone" by heart.

3. i am so proud of my mother-in-law, who has been asked to travel with, and take pictures for, a PBS show. i married into such a talented family, it blows my mind.

4. tyler's talent is bossing.

5. just kidding.

6. i talked to kirsti today and we are putting ourselves on a strict workout regime for the next five months in preperation for our 10 year high school reunion. our hope is that being accountable to each other will help us stay on track. cause if there is one thing that kirsti and i do for each other, it's keep each other in line.... [insert sarcasm]

7. i feel like i'm being super blessed. i always feel like that, but even more so lately. for instance... through my job, i met a lady who has published over 10 novels. she hasn't written anything in a couple years, but she is back writing and is currently working on a young adult novel. [insert fate]. people: she has an editor... and a publisher... and author friends... and was really excited when i told her i'm writing a book. she said we'll have to get together. like seriously, blessings fall into my lap.

8. have i mentioned yet that dana carvey is coming to town? one night only, valentine's day, at the nugget... and guess who's going??? dad, kathi. tyler, and myself! well isn't that special. [insert the church lady's voice].

9. snoop dogg was in town last sunday night doing a show, but my dad didn't get the tickets in time.

10. kidding again.

okay, update complete.

9 comments:

kelly said...

yes, it will be quite fun- i am so looking forward to the hotel the most.

you're not kidding about tyler.

Alicia Young said...

ahh ten year reunion!! I helped plan ours last year and it was so fun! everyone really is just the same Ten years is kind of a short time I think:)
ohh looks like your doing well teachin all those youngsters maybe if I had a teacher like you I would have finished seminary :) I am jealous about dana carvey I would loveeeee to see him... he does the best "cool rock star" impression!! xoxo

heather said...

good update. I wanted to call you today to see how seminary was going. Jacob and I discussed it though and just knew without a doubt that you would be so so good, and we would both want to go to your class. don't even doubt yourself. who do you think those thoughts come from? "Could it be....Satan (insert Dana carvy voice). Wish i could go see him too. oh yah, and i am really glad you are blogging more now so that i get the low down. love you

sarawhat said...

Have you heard of the Book of Mormon made easier series? If you haven't, GET THEM!! This was all I asked for for Christmas. The series is written by the guys who has written all the institute manual and the are AMAZING. He has them for all of the scriptures, but I only own the book of Mormon ones. I understand and have a testimony of the BofM in a way I NEVER have before from reading these books. My mom uses them for teaching sunday school ALWAYS and Mimi uses them always as a reference for teaching seminary. Seriously...got get them. Seriously. At any church book store. Love you.

sarawhat said...

ps- I lent my copy to the seminary teacher in our ward and she won't give it back until the copy she ordered comes in the mail.

GRodenberg said...

that post was almost the equivalent of coming to visit for the weekend and laughing so hard...ahhhh. At least you are having anxiety about something cool that is pushing you out of your comfort zone and helping you grow. I am having anxiety over whether the new kitchen cabinet hardware looks good or not, and hoping that Austin can find a job, and that our house sells, and that the cat keeps sneaking in the house and and and...

Kirsti said...

my videos are ordered! skinny...here we come! i'll let you know when i get mine so we can start. i am very serious about this! on the invite for the reunion it said something about a beach party on saturday. let that be your inspiration. we WILL dress to impress. nicole we HAVE to do this. plus our husbands will really like us if we do it. i love you and i love that you are blogging more frequently!

Raydar Love said...

xoxo

Teija in PDX said...

Such a great update, bless your heart {insert church lady voice again}.