tradition

i've been thinking...

i really want to start gathering some traditions now, before i have children, so that i can instill them in my family from day one.

of course i already bring some from my family. (well, mostly just eating, being cozy, and watching movies).

and tyler already brings some from his family. (bob doing the dishes after we all eat dinner- ha).

but i'm talking about traditions for my own family, that my kids will think on with warm memories, the way i do about my growing up.

that's something that has been hard for me (internally). it has been hard for me to let go of being the child and to feel ready to provide that childhood for another.

maybe it has something to do with my mom? with how different my family situation is now?

probably.

it's hard for me to think about my growing up and have my heart not ache.

is that normal? anyone else feel that way?

one thing that i know is that tyler has been the reason that i have dealt with it as well as i have.

he is so solid and loyal, so all embracing of our own little family as what matters most to him in the world.

and so back to the start...

i want to start gathering traditions of our own.

will you share with me some of your favorites?

i promise if i steal them i'll give you credit.

heathie's cozy house

roberta has requested more pics of my little getaway down here, so here goes...

aaahhh, heaven.

where the magic happens.

cozy living room with humongous tv.


what i have been watching on the humongous tv... home videos. i'm watching all the ones with my mom in them and then crying afterwards. sounds kinda depressing- i know- but i've been enjoying it. isn't she pretty?


craft/computer room where i am as i type this.


billiard parlor... and yes that's another huge tv on the wall. this house is great.

ooohhh, the coziest bed ever. i have been sleeping so good!

in fact that is looking pretty good right now. i am exhausted!

ps- did anyone watch 30 rock? it wasn't my most favorite episode, but it definitly had it's highlights. do you think jack and liz are eventually going to end up together?

whoop whoop (with a raise the roof)

i took a four hour bath last night (until 2:30 in the morning) reading this dang book... and now that it's over i miss it so much. i just want to be back in that world among those characters.

do yourself a favor and read this. you will be thoroughly entertained as you ponder humanity, love, agency....

and a little bit of bridled lust.

(it is stephenie meyer after all)

i miss...

this super hot boy

(the one on the left)

and this super naughty doggy

see you on sunday!